Baby
Laarveld #4 is on the way!
We found out I was pregnant at the end of the
Summer. I had a feeling in July that I
was pregnant but I didn’t have any of the “symptoms or signs” that I had with
my other 3 pregnancies. I just had a
“feeling”. I was also very affected by
the heat, when it was 90+ I got dizzy and felt nauseous but as soon as I went
into the house in the air-conditioning I felt better. So I assumed since I was now 34, I just
couldn’t tolerate the high temps the way I could when I was younger. Yet, no symptoms, just that nagging feeling that I
was pregnant and should take a test. So
I did something I’ve never done before, I tested a few days before my period
was due and before I went to bed. The
test showed a very faint positive line and I wasn’t sure if it was in fact a
positive result or just that the test lines were wet so I put it back in the
wrapper and put it in the bathroom cabinet and went to bed. I tried again with a new test in the morning
and it was indeed positive. So I put
that test with the other one and called my OB to schedule a prenatal
appointment. A few days later I took the
tests out to look at them and noticed that the positive result from my first
test had disappeared. My immediate
thought was, “I hope this is not a bad omen.”
But I dismissed that thought figuring the test just probably dried out
and wasn’t showing the result anymore so I threw it in the garbage.
I
went for my first prenatal exam and after my OB confirmed I was pregnant he
said, “Let’s take a walk down the hall and take a look.” So I followed him and the nurse to his
ultrasound room. It took him a while to
find the baby since it was so small, but when he did, he smiled at me, turned
the screen so I could see and said, ”Look, there it is, isn’t that the most
beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?” And I
could see the little blob that was my baby and I could see the tiny flicker
that was his heartbeat. And I said,
”Yes, yes it is.” I wanted so badly to
ask if I could take a video on my phone or have him print out a picture to show
Brian when I got home, but I didn’t want to be a nerd, so I didn’t.
When
I got home, Brian was sleeping and the kids were napping so I sent him an email
that said- “Dr. R says April 3rd is a good day to have a baby, what
do you think?” When Brian woke up he
checked his email and asked me, “Are you serious?” I said, “Yes. I’m sorry, I hope you’re not
mad, please don’t be mad.” then I started to cry. He said, “I’m not mad, I’m just surprised. I guess I really do have to get a
vasectomy.” And I replied, “Yes, you
really do.” Then Brian hugged me and
said, “I love you, we’ll make it work.”
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